Changes.

In two days Parker will be getting Cochlear Implants. (Cross my fingers)

So, for the next few days my posts will be "Parker-fied" with stories, pictures and thoughts all about him. This is a very big moment in his life and I want to make sure we capture all of it.

"Tear, Tear"

Soon I will be introduced to a new Parker. Hmmm, once he hears sound will he think the same? Look at me the same? Laugh different? Become timid? Will the surgery even work?? I am preparing myself for every possibility.  The Hubs and I adore this kid so freaking much, I am nervous to see what changes, if anything changes.  He doesn't even know who I really am, when they hook the processors on I will introduce myself to my son for the first time.  For the first time my son will hear me say " I love you".  Those words are so powerful to me now. Signing it just isn't the same. 

When Parker was first diagnosed, the Hubs took it pretty hard. Silently.  I made a promise to Hubs and Parker that we would never give up. We would try to teach him about the world, in a different way.  Regardless he is ours and we would have it no other way Cochlear Implant or Not.  I don't know why he chose me to be his mother. Come on I was a naive, selfish, barely 20 year old when I had him.  I do know he has changed a lot of peoples way of thinking.  He is such a beam of light, in this dark world.  

I hope he never stops dancing to his own beat.

I hope he continues to see detail.

I hope he likes our loud world.

I hope he never forgets we tried make the best decision for him.

I hope he likes me.    

                          

The hubs trying to entertain a hungry Parker.

Not too impressed by the entertainment.

My heart just melted and is on the floor!

Good boy cleaning your friend.

Someone dropped Woody, he's dirty again. Meltdown #1

My child looks homeless.